The Mosquito You Wanted to Kill

The Mosquito You Wanted to Kill

A few days ago, you were doing your Japa, your nitya sadhana. Sitting quietly. Everything was set, the breath had slowed down, the Naam had started to repeat itself effortlessly. And then it happened.....

Zzzzz .... A mosquito lands, it bites you. You flinch. Two seconds later, it’s back. You got irritated. Maybe another joins. You try again and shoo it but they keep coming and your concentration is broken.

But what to do? You’re in your Japa. You want to stay focused. But this disturbance, it refuses to leave you alone.

That mosquito... is exactly like a problem in life. And the Japa you’re doing is your Karmayoga.

First, one small bite.

One issue. One rejection. One insult. One moment of loneliness.

You try to shake it off. You ignore it. You pretend it didn’t matter.

But then it comes back. Maybe in a different form.

More bites. More unrest. More anxiety. More reasons to get up and leave the aasan of daily life.

But here’s the thing : after a certain point, you realize that you just cannot escape the mosquito.

No matter how much you swat at it, it will return, because it’s in your karma.

Just like that person, that heartbreak, that situation, that delay

it comes until you learn to stay still anyway.

And then the moment arrives.

You stop resisting. You let go.

You’re still.

The mosquito keeps biting.

But you’re not swatting anymore. Some of you are also enjoying that pain.

You’ve returned to the Japa.

And now the mosquito becomes something else.

It’s taking your blood.

But the blood isn’t wasted.

It becomes an offering. Devi taking her bhog through the mosquito.

Just like your pain in daily life.

When you stay focused on your “Japa of daily life” that is your Karmayoga

Even the wound becomes Naivedyam.

That’s what problems in life do.

If you keep reacting, keep running, keep fighting, they multiply.

But if you stay still, do your karma, your sadhana, your responsibilities, they take only what they are meant to take.

And funny thing : after some time,

you begin to sweat.

The body heats up.

This heat is Guru Kripa.

The mosquito goes away.

Either it leaves on its own.

Or you don’t care anymore.

That sweat… is your Bhairava Aadhara.

It’s the internal strength you didn’t know you had.

The karmayoga you were doing by just staying.

You didn’t fight the mosquito.

You didn’t run from the problem.

You just continued the Japa.

You didn’t become heroic, you just didn’t quit.

So when another mosquito comes tomorrow

or another bite of life

you’ll remember:

You can’t kill all the mosquitoes.

But you can choose not to lose the Japa.

That’s how we win.

We don’t win by controlling life.

We win by not leaving our aasan when it bites.

One small mosquito taught us the meaning of Shut up and Show up !