As a child I played with dolls and toys bought by my parents to keep me busy. Playing was the only thing that gave me real joy and happiness. I used to treat my dolls as real people that have life and emotions.
During my playtime the dolls were sometimes my best friend, a baby, a superhero or even a villain. This bonding was so real in my heart but I was aware that I was laughed at by grownups. Slowly the portrayed reality covered the innocent fantasy in my mind and I grew up.
We cleared the dolls and gave them all away. Also Unknowingly I swept the feelings attached to them in the back of my mind.
Those dolls got replaced by a mobile phone which is with me always but it could never bring back that joy.
Years went by and life happened. The innocent emotions once swept away wanted to resurface and the child in me was lost in finding its way out. Then something amazing happened.
One day through in the very same phone I saw a cute doll emerging in many topics of my interest. It was none other than Maa Adya Mahakali appearing in videos shot by Guruji. She was silently there in every video but somehow she became someone I could not ignore anymore.
To my surprise in these videos he was addressing many unanswered questions of my life and pulling out that very joy I had lost from my childhood. Tears rolled down and smile spread while listening to him.
The day arrived wherein I realised that she is the cutest doll who entered my life with a video manual/guide(Guruji). The guide says that to play with her I should “BREAK THE RULES”. At first this felt intriguing but gradually I understood what he was saying.
To bring back the child in us who felt no difference in good or bad and accepted both equally.
To play with Maa Adya was nothing complex but I needed to dig out those pure emotions that were hidden inside me and let her lead the way.
I placed the doll carefully in her doll house. I bring her flowers to accessorise her beauty. I light a lamp to shine her smile. I keep an incense to make her sweet scent spread. I feed her. I spend time with her playing games while my eyes are closed.
Sometimes she is my mother, sometimes she is my father, sometimes she is my best friend, sometimes she is my baby, sometimes she is my husband, sometimes she is my sibling and sometimes she is just a cute doll sitting in her own world doing her own thing.
For some of us this doll house is in our physical reality and for some of us this doll house is in our hearts.
Jai Maa AdyaMahaKali
Om ShriGurubhyo namaha
Bhargavi
- By Bhargavi Shisya of Gurudev Shri Praveen Radhakrishnan