Kali, the Female Spider

Kali, the Female Spider

We often struggle to understand the suffering and chaos around us. Why are some people born into misery? Why do some commit horrible crimes, while others end up as victims? These are hard questions, but a sadhaka eventually starts to understand them.

As one walks the path of sadhana, a deeper understanding begins to form. You start to see that karma shapes everything. This life isn't just a random event. It's the result of all the actions, choices, and impressions we’ve carried through past births. This is what we call prarabdha karma. It decides how much deity kripa we carry, and how much pain or privilege we’re born into.

Sometimes, the weight of that karma is so heavy that the kripa from past lives seem to fade away. It reduces a person to something like a mule, dragging through a life filled with hardship, confusion, or even cruelty. As uncomfortable as it sounds, being a victim or a perpetrator of violence have deep karmic roots. That doesn’t mean I’m justifying anything. I’m simply trying to understand how deep the patterns of suffering go.

But does that mean we’re stuck in an endless loop? Not really. There is a way out. That way is Vairagya.

The cycle of karma keeps going as long as we keep reacting. I hit you, you hit me back. You take your revenge, and I wait for my turn. And it goes on. In one lifetime I’m the abuser, in another I’m the victim. One life I’m a man, and you’re a dog. Next time the roles flip. This action-reaction chain keeps entangle us more, lifetime after lifetime.

But in one lifetime, if I choose not to react, if I choose vairagya, the cycle breaks.

That’s the strength of vairagya. It’s not weakness. It takes real courage to stop the violence, to stop the hatred, to stop the endless need to get even. When you choose sadhana instead of revenge, the karmic thread snaps. You stop tying new knots.

It’s like what happens with generational trauma. A father hits his son because he was hit by his father. But then the son makes a different choice. He doesn’t pass it on. That’s when the trauma ends. But it's rare. If it were that easy, then maya wouldn’t even exist. This world is like a spider’s web. Everyone’s caught in it, like insects. We panic, struggle, try to escape. But the more we resist blindly, the tighter the spider traps us. The spider, Ma Kali, binds us deeper into her web.

But the moment we stop struggling, we choose Vairagya, something changes. Kalika makes a loose Maya pauses, In that still moment, there’s a chance to slip out of it.

All our relationships, even the painful ones, are like energy cords. Each act of revenge, hate, or attachment binds us tighter to another soul. That bond brings us back again and again. More lifetimes. More pain. More entanglement.

Real freedom doesn’t mean escaping the world. It means facing it differently. It means seeing clearly, acting consciously, forgiving without weakness, and letting go without fear. Bhairava tatwa.

That’s where moksha begins.

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