Bhairava and me

Bhairava and me

Bhairava, you came into my life like no other deity.

At the age of 20 .... me being attracted to u within 15 days of trying with energy...felt like you brought me inside the black hole where no concept of time. I was just there and on the other end you were sitting ... all my past life's were shown on the big screen. You allowed me to come to you at the time when I was mentally ready.

Bhairava ,The whole 1 year you helped me in the path or even if not you but the bhoot ganas you allowed them to help me.

All the wishes I had all the fears ( fear of detachments, fear of failing exams, fear of not being accepted )

You made me alot opposite in 1 year

How i remember I cried last year because of all these fear and a unrealisied being like me blamed you for my situation. Now thinking how I was really you made me a lot different .

I feel whatever happened was good. As I experienced everything in 3 months of starting your jaapa.

Baba now also I am an unrealiseid being baba. I know and also the teaching of my guru Praveen radhakrishnan

I know whatever is happening you are doing the play for me still my unrealisied self is after things like

I want to marry this particular person or want this or that thing.

Things which are not possible I know that but this mind ...which I have to control more. But I am not sad or discouraging myself

Baba you made me so brave in 1 year. Damn I know and I completely surrender myself to you. Baba I know these small small desires are coming or distracting me ,if it's about to happen it will happen, otherwise I know you will just take it from me Baba.

Last year I was scared for things to get out of my hand

This year I am not scared I am just holding the things but have no fear of letting it go😊. You changed me baba💓